End of an Era and the Best Introduction Yet

Any long-time readers, I salute you. You saw me through what was likely the best representation of the process of maturity in the pre-teen years, from some scene kid/hipster/weeb trash piece of shit to whatever kind of garbage I am now.

But, that's over now. All that's left is whatever lies ahead. And since the plague of humanity burdens us so, we'll never truly be done maturing.

That being said, another introduction is in place, yes?

Hello, I'm Mark. I'm a bisexual transgender kid who spends too much time on the internet.

I enjoy politically conscious punk music, Homestuck, musicals, neuroscience, Magic the Gathering, and other things I'm sure you'll see me post eventually. I'm a thief of doom, a prospit dreamer, my zodiac troll is Sollux and my patron Gamzee.

Here is where I'll post whatever I feel like posting whenever I feel like posting it, as it's a personal blog.

I dislike prejudice, no matter which side of the argument it comes from.

And, above all, I welcome you to this new era that will just as shitty as all the rest (although more intelligible).
-Mark

Absence, a Drop of an Alias, and Drama Club

The events that have transpired these last few weeks of absence have been as follows:
-Become drama club ASM
-Lose social life almost entirely

Can't say I'm mourning the loss, however, as everything fell to shit shortly before. The loss of my morail was something I knew was inevitable, and yet, in the end, it still stung.

Could have been worse, however. Things could always be worse.

Anyone with working eyes can probably see that I've stopped using my alias.

Why?

Because I'm not a twelve-year-old scene kid/weeb trash anymore.

Thank God.

Now, on to yet another topic: Drama club.

I've wanted to join drama club in high school since I was very young - say, six or seven. So, of course, I joined once I finally got there.

It was the day before auditions for the fall show  - William Shakespeare's The Tempest, which is actually a comedy (and pretty damn funny at that) - and I'm out for a walk, per usual. I've come up to my usual spot, the elementary school closest to my house, and an old acquaintance of mine, Steven, is there.

Steven, being the stage manager, has to find an assistant by tomorrow, and up comes a familiar face. A face he trusts to a certain extent, at least.

And so, he asks me to be the assistant stage manager. Since everything in my social life had fallen to shit and I was fairly desperate to find a backup, I said yes.

And now we're here.

Well, essentially.
-Mark L.

So This Happened

[11:37:23 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "" ***
[11:37:40 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:37:42 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "team pleb" ***
[11:37:50 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:38:03 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "team pleb u faggot" ***
[11:38:06 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:38:23 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "TEAM PLEB" ***
[11:38:27 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:39:05 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "what the fuck did you just say about me you lil bitch ill have you know i graduated top of my class in the navy seals" ***
[11:39:12 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:39:43 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "luke ill make people send you dick pics if you dont stop" ***
[11:39:48 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:39:58 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "motherfuckrick" ***
[11:40:02 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:40:34 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITS SADOMASOPEDOROBONECROBEASTIALITY" ***
[11:40:41 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:41:17 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "ONE DAY I DID IT TO THIS FROG AND NOW THATS FROGS ME WIF" ***
[11:41:21 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "ONE DAY I DID IT TO THIS FROG AND NOW THATS FROGS ME WIFE" ***
[11:41:42 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "ONE DAY I DID IT TO THIS FROG AND NOW THAT FROGS ME WIFE" ***
[11:42:02 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:42:19 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "Tasmyns pink gloves" ***
[11:42:23 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:42:34 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "yeet squad" ***
[11:43:25 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:43:38 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "jiggery diggery" ***
[11:44:07 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:44:18 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation picture. ***
[11:44:31 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation picture. ***
[11:44:32 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "PROPANE AND PROPANE ACCESSORIES" ***
[11:44:35 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:44:45 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation picture. ***
[11:44:50 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation picture. ***
[11:44:52 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "YES HELLO I AM BEE" ***
[11:44:54 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:45:01 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "luke y" ***
[11:45:03 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:45:07 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:45:10 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "luke pls" ***
[11:45:14 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:45:32 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "ur 2 hard" ***
[11:45:35 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:45:38 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "oh god why" ***
[11:45:41 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:45:49 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "dox game weak" ***
[11:45:51 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:45:58 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "DICK TOO BOMB" ***
[11:46:02 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:46:09 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "OTHERKIN UNITE" ***
[11:46:16 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:46:26 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "STARGENDERS" ***
[11:46:30 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:46:35 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "" ***
[11:46:37 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:46:47 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "DICK THE BOMB" ***
[11:46:49 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:47:06 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "DICK RIDING IS, IN FACT, A MODE OF TRANSPORTATION" ***
[11:47:08 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:47:36 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "my pebis is better than your pebis" ***
[11:47:38 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:47:54 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "conversational title goes here" ***
[11:47:56 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:48:02 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "do you even lift" ***
[11:48:04 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:48:17 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "how HIGH do you have to BEEEEE" ***
[11:48:18 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:48:30 AM] *** captainTurtle, Thief of Doom has changed the conversation topic to "fine you win" ***
[11:48:32 AM] *** existentialAmbiguity, Knight of Breath has changed the conversation topic to "Dox Game 2 Hard" ***
[11:48:38 AM] captainTurtle, Thief of Doom: //sighs
-Narwhal Sandkurt

MSPARP

Tumblr is down so I'm on MSPARP.

Anyone else who's PARP-ing and stumbles across a captainTurtle, that me.

-Narwhal Sandkurt

Remember the Hipster Phase?

My hipster phase was really just me wearing demin and leather pants (and occasionally purple jeggings) and whatever shirt I pulled out with a Charlie the Unicorn jacket thrown over it. I also only listened to indie rock/pop and refused anything "mainstream" (besides the Arctic Monkeys, though).

Look at this piece of shit hipster, staying up til three in the morning to listen to their shitty hipster music. Looks like she's a fucking ten-year-old without her glasses on. Wearing a striped shirt and then plaid and then the Charlie the Unicorn jacket and then another fucking striped jacket over that, what the hell were you thinking?

... Better than before, I guess.

Whatever, I'm not even a hipster.
-Narwhal Sandkurt

Self Acceptance

You know what?

Fuck it.

It doesn't matter if nobody else believes in me, I believe in me.

If what I do is good enough for me, it's good enough.

Fuck all this "I'm not good enough" nonsense, I'm fucking good enough, and anyone who doesn't think so can go straight to hell.
-Narwhal Sandkurt

A Further Look into My "Intelligence"

I am not as smart as the adults surrounding me seem to believe.

All I can really do is memorize mostly useless trivia, and the bit that is useful I can hardly apply to any "real-world situations."

The worst part is, I only have four more years to fix that before I'm shipped out into the world with the reassurance that it's "Not as bad as I think."

There is no possible way someone like myself could ever obtain a doctorate, lest I become someone else entirely. Someone much more intelligent, much more work-oriented, much more driven.

The only thing that may separate me from others in my position is that I wouldn't turn to drugs, but rather something more or less productive: memorizing yet more mostly useless trivia that I will never be able to apply to a "real-world situation."

No, I'm not that "bright but unmotivated" problem child.

I'm just an unmotivated problem.
-Narwhal Sandkurt