2014

It's the last day of 2014.

And man, did this year suck.

But hey, there were a lot of great things that happened, too!

Like:

~Passed all my exams (even math, and I took it without a calculator)
~Came out as trans and I'm not that sad anymore
~More internet friends! The cool egg squad expanded to include an Estonian veloceraptor and the big emo from Illinois
~Joined Drama club (my people man)
~ASM for my first show! Tempest is probs my favourite Shakespeare play now
~Co-prop leader for my second show! Addams family and there are a lot of props
~Really got into Weezer
~Finally got Portal 2! It's great I love it
~Found the band Harvey Danger
~Saw Panic! at the Disco live! It was great nothing can top that
~My art skills improved a bunch like wow
~Found my favourite photograph in an Elle magazine it's hanging right beside me right now
~BRO I DISCOVERED THE JOYS OF NEUROSCIENCE
~This year was shitty but it had some great individual moments
~Also Tasmyn is truly a treasure thats what I've concluded this year
-Mark

Two Years

Guess what, lovelies? It's been two years of this bullshit.

Two years of you guys reading my angsty shitfest I call a blog.

I salute you.

In commemoration of these two years, I'll give you two pictures of me: one from when I started the blog, and one from last night.

Character development, am I right?

-Mark

Whatever

Everything's exciting 'til it happens.

Then it's just boring.

Then you're standing around wondering why you even went when you could be at home in your pajamas watching netflix on the couch.

And then you realize, if you'd passed it up and spent the day at home, you'd just spend the whole time wondering what it would have been like to go.

So, instead of doing anything useful - or anything fun - I stay home and feel vaguely sad while marathoning the same anime and eating obscene amounts of cereal to fill the void.

Whatever.
-Mark

Fuck Gender Roles

I don't actually consider myself to be any gender. Honestly, I think gender is stupid. Why have a gender? What's the point of all this segregation between pink and blue when, in reality, we're all just people with different parts that are only there for waste excretion and sexual reproduction (the last bit not even being mandatory)?

So, I'll properly introduce myself this way: my name is Mark, I use he/him/his pronouns, I like to wear skin-tight jeans and occasionally make-up, maybe a dress every now and then. I destroy gender roles and look pretty damn good while doing so. Especially in the tight jeans, they make my butt look good tbh.

Anyone who tells me I can't dress like I do or wear make-up because it "doesn't correspond with my gender" (or rather, name and pronouns) will be shown the door out of my life, I don't need their negative ass around.

I encourage the rest of you to do the same, should anyone attempt to stop you from being, y'know, you. The same old song and dance.

But seriously, don't be gross, it's their life, not yours.
-Mark

Let's Face It: I'm a 2005 Emo

I'm nothing short of an emo loser at this point.

Today is the first day in months I've worn colours other than black and various shades of grey. Still, it is only a blue minecraft/avengers shirt.

My music has been a steady stream of Weezer, Harvey Danger, and My Chemical Romance with some Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, and Foo Fighters mixed in.

All I've read so far this month have been Homestuck upd8s and The Perks of Being a Wallflower (like I haven't read that book enough already).

I've played only Elder Scrolls games lately (mostly Skyrim, a little bit of Oblivion. Luke suggested I play Marrowind), I've played Minecraft on my laptop but it's hell on Earth since I don't have a mouse. Or rather, a decent mouse. I have my brother's old wireless mouse. You can see the problem with that, yes?

Let's face it. I'm a fucking loser whose stuck in 2005.

Bring on the eyeliner.
-Mark

I'm Just a Loser Who Likes Bands a Little Too Much

I've only listened to Weezer, Harvey Danger, and My Chemical Romance these past few months. Well, almost only.

I'm not exactly complaining, however. The only question I have at this point: should I add My Chemical Romance to my list of favourite bands? Or should I not, if only to hide the fact that I'm emo trash? Decisions, decisions.

Although no one's asking - the hypothetical questions have all been, in my mind, voiced by Adam Buckley as someone asking an advice columnist - I'll list my favourite bands (this is practically a diary at this point anyways. Should I start posts with 'dear webpage' from now on?)

Alesana
Brasstronaut
Harvey Danger
Weezer

That's in chronological order (by when they were added to the list) as well as alphabetical. The world is a magical place.
-Mark

Just More Proof that I'm a Loser

Whenever I've turned out my light and crawled under the covers to do the nightly ritual called 'sleeping', I like to turn on my current favourite album and play it on repeat a few times through.

'Doesn't that take a while? How can you listen to one album on repeat over and over again?'

One, yes it does take quite a while. During that time, I'm slowly drifting to sleep. Just before I drift entirely, I hit pause. Two, it's easy. If it's really your favourite album, you'll want to listen to it constantly.

Currently, the album of choice is Weezer's Make Believe (AKA the one with Beverly Hills on it).

That's all I've got tonight.
-Mark