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im fukcing smahsed (hammered) so i figured id update this boyo.

lsiten, boyos,, im a shameful man shamed full of shAME man you know? im ashaemed to be a person most ofnthe time and im ahsamed of what i do to people.

time to refill my self a refillable ghreen bottle which i put inn is alcohol.

I dont' nkow iwhat  i used to wrtoite in these spaces? was it bad? [pribab;y! yes.

walking is getting hard! im warm! warm! worm

um? i dont knpw anymore this is going on the internwats!

Go Home

This is it. This is the end. I'll keep it up but it's not getting updated anymore.

So... I dunno, go away.
-Mark L

Puberty

Not sure if puberty has been kind or not.

-Mark

Strong Sad

I've been religiously watching Homestar Runner flashes for the past few months, and I feel I reached a new low in this conversation with Nick:

[7:03:22 PM] THINGS THAT GO DUMP IN THE NIGHT: imagine a human strong sad

[7:03:34 PM] THINGS THAT GO DUMP IN THE NIGHT: with like gross slimy black hair that slicks back on its own

[7:03:46 PM] THINGS THAT GO DUMP IN THE NIGHT: always seen eating

[7:04:07 PM] THINGS THAT GO DUMP IN THE NIGHT: has like ten different sloshy shirts and wears no other shirts

[7:04:42 PM] THINGS THAT GO DUMP IN THE NIGHT: just pale fat and generally gross

[7:04:55 PM] THINGS THAT GO DUMP IN THE NIGHT: always smells bad

[7:05:22 PM] THINGS THAT GO DUMP IN THE NIGHT: i think i just descirbed myself in middle school

 

Anybody who knows me, either online or offline, knows my very personal and spiritual connection with Strong Sad. We're both pale, fat, and those disgustingly artsy, bitter hipster-goth wannabes who still buy CDs/Vinyls.

It's time to go listen to The Cure and paint a skeleton with flowers in its eyes and call it a self portrait.

-Mark

Time

It's been a very long time since I last posted. I'm really not sure why I even keep this poor thing going. I mean, it's 2015. Why not give it a rest?

Well, I'm a stubborn person. My attachment to this compels me to update at least once a month, maybe less. Just keep the life support going on this ancient relic.

Although, if I really think about it - was seventh grade really that long ago? Has it really been a long time since I was a twelve-year-old piece of shit? Not really, no. I'm not even fifteen yet.

If it was so recent, why does it feel so far away? What's the point of aging anyways?

They keep pushing to think ahead, to get a plan early. I'm fourteen, I don't know what I want to do!

Please stop pushing me. I look at the three years I've got left of high school and it's starting to feel more like three days.

I was decorating my room the other day, with pages from a magazine. I looked around at everything and thought, "Why am I even bothering to do this? I'll be going away soon enough."

Don't I have time? Isn't that what people always say, "you're only in _ grade, you have time to figure it out!" Is there no time left now that I'm nearly a sophomore?

Please don't push me anymore. I'm so tired, but there's no time to sleep.
-Mark

Addam's Family

Opening night for Addam's Family is on Friday.

Not really worried, though. It just feels like it's going to be another night of sitting backstage and moving things on and off.

...That's really it.
-Mark

2014

It's the last day of 2014.

And man, did this year suck.

But hey, there were a lot of great things that happened, too!

Like:

~Passed all my exams (even math, and I took it without a calculator)
~Came out as trans and I'm not that sad anymore
~More internet friends! The cool egg squad expanded to include an Estonian veloceraptor and the big emo from Illinois
~Joined Drama club (my people man)
~ASM for my first show! Tempest is probs my favourite Shakespeare play now
~Co-prop leader for my second show! Addams family and there are a lot of props
~Really got into Weezer
~Finally got Portal 2! It's great I love it
~Found the band Harvey Danger
~Saw Panic! at the Disco live! It was great nothing can top that
~My art skills improved a bunch like wow
~Found my favourite photograph in an Elle magazine it's hanging right beside me right now
~BRO I DISCOVERED THE JOYS OF NEUROSCIENCE
~This year was shitty but it had some great individual moments
~Also Tasmyn is truly a treasure thats what I've concluded this year
-Mark